KAPIT

Mga araw ay lumilipas
Eto’t tahimik pa ring tumatagas
Mga luhang pilit pinipigil
Wari mo’y masaya at sayo’y nanggigigil.

Pag-agos ng luha’y walang magawa
Tatahimik na lamang ng di mahalata
Pagsusumamo ng dibdib
Sa puso’y bigat at pighati ang kinikipkip.

Paano na ang supling?
Paano na ang sinisinta?
Iiwan bang nangungulila
Habang sa isang panig ay nagluluksa?

Sadlak sa kagipitan
Hiling ay makawala sa mundong piitan
Sinong may sala?
Ito ba ang buhay na pangako mong may saya?

Buti ay may nagpapaalala
Mga parokyang sa akin ay sumusuporta
Halos araw-araw ay sinasambit
Nandyan si Bathala puno ng pagmamahal at pangunawa.

Minsan ng sumagi sa isip
Kitilin ang buhay na iisa lang ang angkin
Pag-aaring hiram na di naman akin.
Sa wari ko’y wala ng pag-asa,wala ng sasagip.

Napakabilis nangpanyayari di ko naalintana
Isa sa parokya ay nalagas
Nagising sa katotohanan na di dapat doon magwagas
Pag-asa’y nariyan,humawak maiigi si Bathala’y di ka iiwan.

Mga araw ay lumilipas
Isa-sa ng hinaharap
Pasakit at pighati’y di na iniinda
Pagkat sa pagkalubod ay unti-unti ng umaahon,
Basta kay Bathala nanalig at sumampalataya.

REMINISCE

I was so in love with you
But I can’t talk about it
You’ve sunken inside of me
All of you run into my veins.

I was so in love with you
But I can never speak it out
I shouted it down the hill
And all I felt was a chill.

I was so in love with you
But I can’t let you feel it
Too scared you might shut the door
Left me locked up, can’t see you no more.

I was so in love with you
But you’re too innocent to read my mind
You stare me in the eyes, yet I see you empty
Too ignorant, how foolish I am.

I was so in love with you
But I already passed out
Never had a chance, no never will.
I guess you didn’t notice, so I hide it to myself with tears.

I was…

ILLUSION

Everything is clear, now I can say
The doubts I have before makes me insane
Letting go was the hardest part I had made
Just when I thought I was flying
But my feet are inside my own coffin.

To think of it makes me sick
The insanity I had makes me shiver
I was so dumb and so clever
I dug my own grave
Thinking it’s now or never.

You hunted me and gave me sleepless night
You’re like a gum sticking inside of my mind
It’s so annoying, myself, I have to blame
Started as a smoke now I have to let go
Before it starts to flame.

Now I’m awake, my eyes are wide open
I see clearly now, I almost have fallen
The trap you had made for me
I crashed it and tossed it to the pit
I’ll never be on fire never will I be deceived.

I defeated you, now I can say
I won the battle that you wanted me to play
The thorns you gave didn’t struck me
The roses you offered stinks and disgusted me
You’re beauty is just an illusion
So untrue, I’ll never be betrayed by you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Last friday I celebrated my birthday without spending any single penny....but it was the best birthday i ever had! The whole day I was in the church serving my Lord our Lord,though I don't have anything to prepare for my birthday but indeed He provided for me. I can't explain what i'm feeling that day but i know He was so close to me, and even spoke to me regarding my struggles..that is why I made the CHECK MATE poem. He made me realized things which I am so afraid of..I thank Him for reminding me. And also for being so supportive of my friends,sis-bro in Christ though i'm feeling so home sick they comforted me...I love them all so much..

Now I realized that it's not how you celebrate your birthday but with whom you celebrate your birthday...Now I'm already 28 years old still young and a lot of things will still happen!

CHECK MATE

You said I’m trap
Am I?
You’re check mate
No more moves left.

You confused me
But He gave me wisdom
You said I’m done
No, not yet for Him.

I was so foolish to believe you
Almost drowned me with your lies
No chance and hope left for me
You whispered it daily to my ears.

Betrayed?
I’m no longer bound
Faith
In Him I conquered

Last move is for my King
Check mate you said?
You’re too dumb to notice
My King won the battle.

IN BETTER HANDS

(this lyrics is one of my favorite song by natalie grant...hope you'll understand the meaning of it co'z it is similar to my life's journey..)

It's hard to stand
On shifting sand
It's hard to shine
In the shadows of the night
You can't be free
If you don't reach for help
And you can't love
If you don't love yourself
But there is hope when my faith runs out...
Cuz I'm in better hands now

[Chorus:]
It's like the sun is shining
When the rain is pourin' down
It's like my soul is flying
Though my feet are on the ground
So take this heart of mine
There's no doubt
I'm in better hands now

I am strong
All because of you
I stand in awe of
Every mountain that you move
I am changed
Yesterday is gone
I am safe
From this moment on...
And there's no fear when the night comes 'round
I'm in better hands now

[Chorus]

It's like the sun is shining
When the rain is pourin' down
It's like my soul is flying
Though my feet are on the ground
It's like the world is silent
Though I know it isn't true
It's like the breath of Jesus
Is right here in this room
So take this heart of mine
There's no doubt

You can't be saved
If you're not reaching out for help

TRUST IN THE LORD

Memory Verse: Numbers 14:6-9 “Joshua son of Nun and Caleb son of Jephunneh, who were among those who explored the land, tore their clothes and said to the entire Israelites assembly, “ the land we passed through and explored is exceedingly good. If the Lord is pleased with us, He will lead us into that land, a land flowing with milk and honey, and will give it to us. Only do not rebel against the Lord. And do not be afraid of the people of that land because we will swallow them up. Their protection is gone, but the Lord is with us. Do not be afraid with them.”

Trust – have confidence or faith in; believe; be confident about something

How can we trust? How can you say “Trust me if you yourself have a doubt?” Sometimes we ought to say to someone to let them trust in you but a lot of times we fail to do or fulfill it. It really hurts if you put your confidence to someone but when the rough time comes will just left you with nothing. To whom you can trust now? As Christians we should look to our self and check first if we our own self can be trusted also. How can we say we can be trusted? Or to whom we really have to trust?

As we look in Caleb’s and Joshua’s life, when they went up to the land where the Lord promised to them they really saw how wonderful the land was and even described it exceedingly good! But the other men who went up with them was afraid and even told the Israelites that they cannot posses the land because the people living there was so powerful and even describe themselves as a grasshoppers. But do we look like grasshoppers in the Lord’s eyes?

Caleb and Joshua say’s in verse 8 if the Lord is pleased with us, He will lead us into that land.
If the Lord is pleased with us? Then how can we please Him? If we will go back from the story when the Israelites were still in Egypt and until they journeyed out to sum it all up the Lord is giving us the whole picture, “To trust and have faith in Him”. He is not asking for anything else only to depend and believe in Him wholeheartedly.

When the Lord said to Caleb in verse 24 because he has a different spirit and follows him wholeheartedly, He will bring him into the land he went to and his descendants will inherit it. Caleb has a spirit of trusting and believing the Lord not only partially but wholeheartedly. The Lord wants us to do the same; we have to develop our trust and to put our confidence in Him.

As Christians we really have to be bold in serving to glorify our God, if we put our faith and confidence in Him nothing can devour us.

My Prayer:
Lord forgive me from doubting a lot of times; forgive me if I grumble against you and just looking in the negative things that is happening around us. Lord a lot of times I stumble and fall but you are always there to pick me up. Yes Lord create in me a new heart and renew a right spirit within me that is to trust and be confident in you always, help me to cast out all the doubts that the enemy has placed in me. You are our God so mighty God in you and with you there is nothing to be afraid of.

UNCERTAIN

Nowhere
I thought I was heading towards you
Running
Can’t even move myself
Hoping
I thought you’ll be there.

Pouring
It smells like a rusty blood
Dig
Dirt is all over you
Dust
Always blown by the wind.

Death
Embraced you so sweet
Lost
It’s gone never will come back
Grieve
Thorns you have left.

Betrayed
So sick of it
Lies
It’s all over you.

SA PORTA

Mundo ko’y tahimik ngunit ang isip ay tuliro
Walang bakas na makita isip ko’y lito
Anong nangyari ako ngayo’y nag-iisa
Naiwan sa ere di mahagilap ang mga kasama

Dati rati’y tayo’y masaya
May pera o wala sama-sama paring nagsasalo-salo
Munti kong silid ay punong-puno
Ngayo’y silid ay gumuho, nahagip pati mga kabaro

Dati rati’y puno ng sigla
Mga tawanan nati’y labis na kay sigla
Minsan naman ay may drama
Mga buhay nati’y parang pelikula bawat isa ay unik ang storya

Ngunit ngayo’y lumipas na
Bigla nalang naglaho na parang bula
Asan na ang mga katropa
Mga karamay ko, ako ngayo’y nag-iisa

Di matiis na di mapaluha
Habang sinusulat ito’t inaalala ang nagdaan
Mga panahon natin na labis na kay saya
Sa iyakan at kwela kayo ay kasama
Kahit sa hirap tuloy pa rin ang ligaya.

Nakahanap man ng kapalit
Ngunit tropa nati’y walang makahihigit
Samahang matatawag na solid
Mga tunay kong kaibigan, asan na kayo’t ako’y inyong iniwan.

Ni sa panaginip ko’y di sumagi
Parang buhok isa-isang nalagas
Buti nalang tatay ko’y kalbo
Kaya heto’t ako nalang ang natirang kabobo

Lumipas man ang panahon sa puso’t isip di mawawaglit
Mga alaalang napakaganda kasama ang buong tropa
Kung saan man kayo napadpad sana’y inyong maalala
Na minsan sa ating buhay tayo’y magkakasama sa loob ng porta.