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“you’d think that silence would be peaceful. But really, it’spainful.” – David Levithan

Lying in my bed

Turbulence inside my head

This loneliness inside of me

Damn, why you just don’t kill me.

Yeah, maybe I’m better off alone

Rather than to be with someone who can’t be my own

I rather be sad and empty

Than live surrounded by lies and wary.

I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure just likeMarilyn Monroe

I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard tohandle.

Yes, I’m a psycho, a freak or maybe a bitch

A ragged doll, used and ditched.

But I’m just a girl who’s just protecting herself

I live in the past that nobody wants to watch

Nobody understand and no one can stand

No one to save me…I can’t even demand.

So silence is all that’s left in me

My cure even everyone else don’t agree

In quietness I hide

Bleeding and slowly restoring myself.