Showing posts with label broken. Show all posts
Showing posts with label broken. Show all posts

Tuesday, 14 August 2018

LIFELINE

Posted by iya_khin at 05:51 7 comments

Standing alone at this bus stop
Waiting for a ride to take me home
Tired from the loads that the world has given me
On this point I am at the edge of giving up

I can’t express myself as no one is even there
The crowd is too busy to notice
People care less
To whom I would run to?

Battling with the tears that are about to fall
My chest aches as I hold my breath
This feelings that starts to engulf me
I am in distress, is this what I deserve?

I love in full, I gave in full
Now look at me, I am empty
Are those not enough that they still want to break me?
Broken I am, this I think is my destiny.

Many times I fell but I tried hard to pull back myself
This tiny heart of mine was torn apart
I mend it…I mend it…many times that i've lost count..
But now I’m too tired to do it all over again

All I asked was someone to grow old with
Someone who will choose and fight for me
They said they love me
How come now it is just me?




Wednesday, 2 April 2014

emo 101

Posted by iya_khin at 00:44 0 comments
Paano nalang sa pag-gising ko’y wala kana
Sa pagmulat ng aking mga mata’y di kana masilayan
Paano nalang kung ako’y muling mag-iisa
Makakaya ko pa ba, kung pati ikaw ay mawawala?

Paulit-ulit ng nabigo
Paulit ulit ng nasaktan
Walang kadala-dala
Paulit-ulit nalang…

Mabuti pa nga sigurong mag-isa
Di na masusugatan, di na masasaktan
Sa paglipas ng panahon pagod na ang aking puso

Ayoko na..hindi na siguro.

from pinterest



Thursday, 21 February 2013

it's like....

Posted by iya_khin at 04:47 12 comments

you ripped my heart out since the day you left me
i wasn't even ready for this but you have dug me my grave
so  i closed my eyes co'z you've left me with no choice
into the darkness you've tossed me, little demons rejoice!

six feet under i lay and fear surrounds me
hopeless i am no one knows  you buried me nicely
at the top of my lungs i screamed out so loud
my voice nobody can hear and to die is only what i'm allowed.

i'm screaming out your name can you hear me?
i'm screaming out your name  can you hear me?
i'm screaming out your name  can you hear me?
i'm screaming out for help but you ignored me...


Thursday, 20 December 2012

Daan

Posted by iya_khin at 01:11 7 comments
deviant

Patawad....patawad....hindi ko sinasadya...please huminto ka na..
Nanginginig at pahagulgol na sambit ni Clara habang nakalapat ang kanyang mga kamay sa kaliwang tadyang ng asawang si Joshua habang patuloy itong tinatagasan ng dugo.

Nag-aagaw buhay...

*isa...dalawa...tatlo....

Mamatay kana!

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Tulong!!! Na-snatched ang bag ko!! Pasigaw ni Maria habang hingal na hingal sa paghabol sa mamang holdaper sa kahabaan ng Ermita. Nilalaman ng bag ang perang kanyang nalikom sa loob ng limang araw na paglalagi sa Casa, pangpagamot sana sa anak nyang nag-aagaw buhay dahil sa dengue.

Biglang tumunog ang telepono...

Ate, wala na si Mina...

*Miss!!!

Isang rumaragasang kotse ang biglang bumulaga sa kanyang harapan.

Nangingisay...

...durog ang ulo't labas at nagkalat ang utak.

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Tulalang nakatitig sa kawalan si Danilo habang nakatayo sa gilid ng ika-dalawampu't limang palapag ng gusali. Malamig ang simoy ng hangin, nakakapanindig balahibo.

Napakawalanghiya mo Brandon! Hayop ka! Nagawa mo pa talagang magdala ng putang babae dito sa loob ng pamamahay ko! Matapos kong gawin at ibigay ang lahat sayo eto pangkababuyan mo ang igaganti mo sa akin?!!

Oo! Dahil sawang-sawa na ako sa pagmumukha mong bakla ka!! Kung baboy ako mas baboy ka, binaboy mo pagkatao ko!!!!

*Masarap ang hangin...

Parang gahibla ng balahibo...

sarap magpatangay...

Pikit mata...eto na...

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anong meron sa kisame? wala naman akong makita.
anong meron sa silid na 'to? heto't ako'y nag-iisa.
ano ba ang meron ka? tinangay mo pati ang aking kaluluwa.
*ano ba itong nasa leeg ko? pisi ng buhay ko.
ano ba itong nasa paanan ko? huling tungtungan ko.


Tuesday, 13 November 2012

fickle..

Posted by iya_khin at 01:58 4 comments

“you’d think that silence would be peaceful. But really, it’spainful.” – David Levithan

Lying in my bed
Turbulence inside my head
This loneliness inside of me
Damn, why you just don’t kill me.

Yeah, maybe I’m better off alone
Rather than to be with someone who can’t be my own
I rather be sad and empty
Than live surrounded by lies and wary.

I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure just likeMarilyn Monroe
I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard tohandle.
Yes, I’m a psycho, a freak or maybe a bitch
A ragged doll, used and ditched.

But I’m just a girl who’s just protecting herself
I live in the past that nobody wants to watch
Nobody understand and no one can stand
No one to save me…I can’t even demand.

So silence is all that’s left in me
My cure even everyone else don’t agree
In quietness I hide
Bleeding and slowly restoring myself.



Wednesday, 31 October 2012

tula 101

Posted by iya_khin at 04:08 11 comments
wagas

Basag basag na pangarap isa-isang pinupulot
Pirapirasong alaala unti-unting hinahabi
Sa pagkakalugmok dahan-dahang bumabangon
Bangungot ng kahapon syang ibinabaon sa limot.

Sa kabila ng lahat puso’y patuloy na nanaghoy
Mga patak ng luha sadyang di mapigilang dumaloy
Pagsapit ng dilim pilit itinatago’t inililihim
Damang dama yaring sakit naninimdim.

Makakaya mo bang mahalin ang isang tulad ko,
Yaring sira-sira buong pagkatao ko?
Hindi perpekto’t madungis ang nakalipas
Kung di rin lang nanaisin nalamang magwakas.

Hanggad ko lamang na ako’y mahalin
Tunay at wagas yung matatawag kong akin
Hindi ako laruan para iyong pagkatuwaan
Ako’y tao lang marupok nasasaktan.

Hawakan mo ang aking mga kamay
Damhin mo ang mga yakap ng katawan kong lupaypay
Tamis ng aking mga halik sayo’y iaalay
Puso kong sawi wag mo sana hayaang mamatay.


Tuesday, 4 September 2012

REHAB

Posted by iya_khin at 05:18 45 comments
“You need a shrink more than I do!” – Vince

Weirdo?!! Who?!! Me?!! Bagong issue pa ba yan?! Hmmmm?!!

Baliw, loka-loka, adik, sira, bipolar, emo ect..ect…
I have many names but all I know is…
It’s just me being vocal and true to what I’m thinking and about my feelings, is that a valid reason enough that they’re thinking I’m a retard?! Hmmmm…..
Well, we all have different opinions, reasons and I respect that, I won’t even argue about it…ummm.. not to the extent also that they’ll be pulling my leg…. But I’m willing to…. (#lies)

Dami kong gustong ikwento..nakaka-nosebleed ang mag-english kaya ititipa ko nalang ito sa sarili nating pambansang wika. (yeah rakenrol! \m/)

Na LSS ako sa kanta ni Adele “TIRED”

“Hold my hand while you cut me down, it’d only just began but now it’s over now.”

Yeah, hell ye! I’m dead tired!! (diba sabi ko dapat tagalog?!!)

Pagod na ako sa maraming bagay, pagod na pagod na ako sa redundancy ng buhay ko….i’m so tired cleaning others mess while I’m putting myself at risk. I’m not YOUR or WHOEVER’s superwoman….

I’M ONLY HUMAN!

I’m so sick of those lies, promises, terms and conditions, manuals, guide books, guidelines, parental, reports, news, graphs....haiiiisstttt!!!!

My brain’s so distorted, my heart’s broken…damn!! Lasog-lasog na ako, bulag ba kayo?!!

“If happy ever after did exist I would still be holding you like this
All those fairytales are full of sh*t, one more stupid love song I'll be sick”

I’m so sick……….


Anna (she’s my evil twin sis! We met each other while we’re both on our straight jackets)
Anna: Finish you?!
Iyah: finish me?!!
Anna: let’s kill them!!
Iyah: yeah all of them!!
Psychotic?!! Who?!! Us?!! Naaaaahhh…… di lang talaga kami swerte sa mga taong minahal at minamahal namin kaya siguro ganto kami.

Napakahirap gamutin ang sakit lalo na’t malala na dahil sa KATANGAHAN!
Tanga bang talaga o nagtatanga-tangahan lang?!

“ Ako naman kasi super tanga, isang milyong rason na nasa harapan ko… sana tinigilan ko na…kala ko kaya kong maging civil kami..” – ANNA

“Ayoko ng lokohan.”  - IYAH

“Napakamalas ko sya natagpuan kong manloloko, ako kasi nagpaloko. Kay sakit isipin ako nagdudusa sa lahat samantalang sila nagpapakasaya..” – ANNA

“Hindi naman ako masamang tao…nagmahal lang ako…inaamin ko naman kasalanan ko..ganito pala ang kapalit..pero sana matapos na ang hirap.” – ANNA ( I second the motion – IYAH)

“Siguro I need to be the right person to be with the right person.” – ANNA

“I should learn to be happy without men…” – ANNA

“weeeh?!! Di nga?!!” – IYAH

“I surrender in this battle…white flag!” – ANNA

Ganto kaming dalawa kabaliw kaya siguro pinagtagpo kami ng tadhana, pareho kaming kumakanta ng…
“We found love in a hopeless place..” LELs lang!!

Yaan na nga!! Enjoy nalang tayo..pasasaan ba’t magiging happy din tayo!

CHEERS TO  THEM!! 


Saturday, 4 August 2012

i'm ok!

Posted by iya_khin at 21:58 13 comments
wagas

Monday, 30 July 2012

lies

Posted by iya_khin at 23:54 6 comments

Bakit di ko maaming wala na ang dating damdamin
Di na ganun
At hindi ko na kayang piliting muli mong angkinin
Di na ganun – Yeng Constantino

Letting go…

Paano na nga lang kaya kung isang araw magising ka’t bigla mo nalang narealized na wala na yung feelings mo dun sa taong dati ay sobra-sobrang minamahal mo? Paano kung mapagod na din ang puso mo sa paghihintay sa taong pilit mong ipinaglalaban pero alam mo naman na sa una palang ay imposibleng mangyari?

Will you regret loving that person?

Madalas unang mararamdaman natin ay yung panghihinayang, manghihinayang ka sa mga effort na ginawa o ibinigay mo sa kanya. Nakakalungkot isipin pero sabi pa nga love is like a gamble, sumusugal ka, yun nga lang puso mo ang nakataya.

Regrets?!! Di siguro…as long as you have loved that person sincerely di mo yun kailangan pagsisihan dahil sa naging totoo ka sa kanya…pero tama na…mahirap makipagsugal kung ikaw lang ang laging tumataya and in the end ikaw pa ang langing talo….


 “Things come apart so easily when they have been held together with lies.”
― Dorothy Allison, Bastard Out of Carolina


Thursday, 26 July 2012

love song story

Posted by iya_khin at 02:05 10 comments

Dahilan sa super emo-emohan ko ngayon at di ako mapakali sa upuang ipinahiram sa akin ng aming opisina, pati na rin itong laptop na ipinapagamit sa akin ng mabait naming kompanya at buong linggo na ata akong petiks na nagpapalala ng sitwasyon ko dahilan sa di gumagana ang muscles sa brain ko, kaya naisipan kong makapagblog nalang muna.. sayang din kasi ang aircon..

Rarandom lang ako sa post na ‘to, sensya na at wala ‘tong kwenta, kung nabobored ka sa intro palang eh wag mo nalang ituloy at baka tuluyang maumay ka.

Kung talagang sinusubaybayan nyo ang walang kwentang mga post ko siguro naman di na lingid sa inyo na music lover ako, yun nga lang wag nyo ng itanong kung anong genre ang fav ko, mag-analyze ka na lang base sa nickname ko.

I’ll start my story telling a lie gamit ang mga lyrics ng mga kantang paulit-ulit na tinutugtog sa radyo at mga kantang nagpaluha at dumurog na sa mga napakarami ng puso. dahilan din para tapusin ang buhay nila at tumalon sa 13flr ng kanikanilang building at laslasin ang kanilang mga pulso.

Dami kong sinabi!!


Let’s start the music playing!
Jukebox Select! 

You came along unexpectedly; I was doing fine in my little world – Nina Rendition

I met you on a springtime day, you were minding your life and I was minding mine too - England Dan & John Ford Coley 

Hey, there's a look in your eyes must be love at first sight – Gino Padilla

Close your eyes give me your hand darling, do you feel my heart beating do you understand, do you feel the same? Am I only dreaming is this burning an eternal flame. – The Bangles
How did you know I needed someone like you in my life, that there was an empty space in my heart you came at the right time in my life. – Gary V.

I didn’t know I was looking for love until I found you. – Sitti

As we stroll along together holding hands walking all alone, so in love are we two that we don’t know what to do, so in love in a world of our own. – AZ YET

I get so weak on the knees I can hardly speak, I lose all control and something takes over me, In a day you look so amazing, It's not a phase I want you to stay with me by my side I swallow my pride, Your love is so sweet It knocks me right off from my feet, I can't explain why your lovin' makes me weak. – Freestyle

You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. – James Blunt

Your body is a wonderland, your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands) your body is a wonderland. – John Mayer

Lovin' you is easy cause you're beautiful makin' love with you is all i wanna do, lovin' you is more than just a dream come true and everything   that i do is out of lovin' you. – Minnie Riperton


We've been together for so very long but now things are changing, oh I wonder what's wrong? Seems you don't want me around, the passion is gone and the flame's died down. – Weird Al

Nag-aaliw sa usok at beer lang ang kasama, mas okey pang laging gan'to nalilimutan ka. Hindi ko malaman sa 'yo kung ano ang drama mo, bakit lagi mo na lang sinasaktan ang puso ko? – Siakol

Love can't you see I'm alone, can't you give this fool a chance a little love is all I ask a little kindness in the night. - Cliff Richard

Torete, torete, torete ako. Torete, torete, torete sa 'yo. - MOONSTAR88
 Love don't you know mahal na mahal kita, di mo lang alam TL ako sayo sa twina... Will always love you... wooooooo… will always! – Grin Department
 
Akoy mayroong nalaman ito’y tungkol sayo nang aking malaman ako’y na-shock sayo sa twina... haaaaaaaa! Long la la la la la long la la la la la long long long long long long... story!  - Grin Department
But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you, they try to pull me away but they don't know the truth, my heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing. You cut me open and I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love, you cut me open. – Leona Lewis

And though you don't believe that they do, they do come true, for did my dreams come true when I looked at you. And maybe too if you would believe you too might be overjoyed, over loved, over me. – Stevie Wonder

And we know it's never simple never easy, never a clean break no one here to save me, you're the only thing I know like the back of my hand. And I can't breathe without you, but I have to breathe without you, but I have to. – Taylor Swift
 'cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even. What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you? And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok? I'm falling to pieces yeah, I'm falling to pieces. – The Script


Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash you tossed it in the trash, you did. To give me all your love is all I ever asked 'cause what you don't understand is, I'd catch a grenade for ya, throw my hand on a blade for ya, I'd jump in front of a train for ya, you know I'd do anything for ya. I would go through all this pain take a bullet straight through my brain, yes I would die for you baby but you won't do the same. – Bruno Mars

The scars of your love remind me of us they keep me thinking that we almost had it all. The scars of your love, they leave me breathless I can't help feeling. We could have had it all, rolling in the deep you had my heart inside your hand and you played it to the beat. – ADELE
 Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone, don't think I was too young to be messed with? The girl in the dress cried the whole way home, I should've known. – Taylor Swift
But now I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes, all that I know is I don't know how to be something you miss. I never thought we'd have a last kiss, never imagined we'd end like this. Your name, forever the name on my lips. – Taylor Swift



the end




Monday, 23 July 2012

timeline

Posted by iya_khin at 01:52 6 comments
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Monday, 11 June 2012

wag na....

Posted by iya_khin at 04:59 5 comments

deviant

May blog pa pala ako, muntik kona naman makalimutan..kung hindi pa ako susumpungin ng kaemohan ko ngayon dikita maaalala…

Oo, naeemo na naman ako ngayon,hindi ko alam kung bakit pero bigla ko lang naramdaman na nalulungkot ako…yeahsimply…no reason at all…ewan ko…

I want someone to talk to perowala naman akong choice kasi oras ng trabaho ngayon at hindi din alam ng amo kona pumepetiks na naman ako…oooiii wag ka naging busy naman ako for the past fewweeks ah!

Nalulungkot lang talaga ako…I meanmalungkot naman talaga ako at hindi na bago sa inyo yon…feeling ko nga malapitna akong sumabog. Haaaiiistt….. life parang buhay lang…

I know there’s a lot of things napwede naman magpasaya sa isang tao, so many ways yet so little time and limited..paranglibro lang..madaming pagpipilian pero limitado lang ang kaya mong mabasa atbasahin.

I’m struggling right now, minsannatatanga nalang ako ng di ko namamalayan…tulad ngayon, nagtitipa pala ako…

Alam nyo ba yung feeling na masayaka pero hindi mo pwedeng itodo, yung limitado lang, yung alam mong mayhangganan din..natatakot akong dumating yung araw na yon…honestly di ko alamkung kakayanin ko.

I’m trying to hold on tight, I’mtrying to balance myself pero madami akong lapses, sobra-sobra…di ko na kayangicontrol..o sadyang hinahayaan ko lang…

Alam nyo din ba yung feeling nayung puso mo bigla nalang hihina sa pag-pintig, yung minsan hindi mo syamaramdaman kung tumitibok pa..yung parang manhid kana..yung feeling na parangmasusuka ka pero hindi naman…yung feeling na parang nauubusan ka ng hininga? Basta..

Gusto kong umiyak ngayon, peropag nagkakaroon naman ako ng time mapag-isa hindi ako makaiyak, hindi komagawang umiyak….di ko na maintindihan ang sarili ko lately….

Gusto kong gayahin yung eksenanila Paul and Mia sa teleseryeng “kung ako’y iiwan mo” nung nagpunta sila sagitna ng disyerto.. yung nagsisisigaw si Paul dahil malungkot sya..sana magawako din yon..gusto kong magwala at sumigaw ng sumigaw hanggang sa mapaos ako.

I’m tired..BIG TIME!! But theproblem is…I can’t let go and I won’t let go…..

“How is it possible that someonecan hurt you repeatedly and you still care for them so much?” – tweeter

I guess I’m just really stupid….

I feel lonely every single day ofmy life and I’m ashamed to admit that co’z nobody cares anyway…..


videokeman mp3
Wag Na – Yeng Constantino Song Lyrics



Sunday, 22 May 2011

PROPERTY FOR SALE

Posted by iya_khin at 23:48 15 comments

THIS PROPERTY IS FOR SALE….

Halos madurog ang puso ko….di ko alam kung paano at biglang sabay-sabay pumatak ang luha ko…ang sakit-sakit at ang bigat-bigat ng pakiramdam ko ngayon lalo na ng makita ko ang larawang ito….

Isang linggo na akong ganito na hohomesick na ako masyado. Dala na rin siguro na sobrang stressed na ako sa trabaho at sa totoo lang pagod na pagod na ako…

Anong nangyari? Bakit? Bakit ganyan na ang itsura mo? di ka naman ganyan nung umalis ako, napakasigla mo, napakaganda at punong puno ng saya sa paligid mo..

Naalala ko pa nung una kitang makita tuwang-tuwa ako, walang keming pinatuloy mo ako. Gandang-ganda talaga ako sayo lalo na nung inilaan mo sa akin ang napakagandang silid ko, salamat sayo. Ilang taon din ba tayong nagsama, labing-dalawang taon ba?!

Ang dami nating alaala, alam mo lahat ng sekreto ko, alam mo lahat ng kalokohan ko buong pagkatao ko nakita mo wala na nga akong naitago sayo. Ang saya-saya natin dati, paminsan-minsan lang kita nakikitang malungkot pagwala kang kasama kaya nga di kita maiwan-iwan kaya maghapon tayong dalawang nagkukulong sa kwarto.

Pero ano ‘to? Anong nangyari sayo?! Bakit di mo ako nahintay? Bakit nangyari lahat ng ito?! Diba sabi ko naman sayo babalik ako, sabi ko sayo konting tiis lang…..konti nalang….

Nahihirapan akong huminga…nahihirapan akong malaman at makitang ganyan ang nangyari sayo, di na nga kita nakilala, nasaan na ang datin ikaw…nasaan na sila? Nasaan na ang mga mahal kong inihabilin ko sayo? Iniwan nyo na ako….iniwanan nyo na akong mag-isa….

Mama? Daddy? Brian? Aj? Asan na kayo? Bakit kailangang maging ganito? Bakit hanggang ngayon pinaparusahan pa din ako…ano ba ang naging kasalanan ko?

Wala kana, wala na akong babalikan, wala na din sila, wala ng lahat, puro alaala nalang ang iniwan mo..alaalang ngayong binabalikan ko, alaalang ngayon ay kay pait na dinadala ko sa dibdib ko…..

Kailan ba titigil ang pagluha ko? kailan ba matatapos ang lahat ng ito?
Kailan ba matatapos ang pasakit mo? Kailangan ko na bang wakasan ang aking paghinga?

Ayoko na….

Pagod na ako….


home no more

Wednesday, 18 May 2011

one shot

Posted by iya_khin at 03:00 23 comments

It only takes one big shot to hurt me


Friday, 4 December 2009

When it rains..

Posted by iya_khin at 20:53 14 comments
When it rains can you be my sunshine?
When it rains can you burst out your tears?
When it rains does it mean goodbyes?
And when it rains does it mean your hurting?
When it rains does each drops makes you heal?
When it rains can you warm me with your embrace?
And when it rains would you cry for me as i cried for you?
And when it rains I can hide myself to you....
you'll never know what will happen
When it rains.....
PS:
Image is from Hana Yori Dango


Monday, 22 June 2009

SHADOW

Posted by iya_khin at 03:59 0 comments

I waited for you
But still I’m all alone
I searched for you
It seems hidden forever.

Hold me
I’m loosing my grip
Save me
I don’t want fall inside the pit.

I needed you
You’re nowhere to be found
I’m almost broken
See now I’m tearing apart.

I’m so sick within
Heal me
I’m dying
Restore my soul.

Fill me in
I’m so empty
Burn for me
I’m so cold, can’t you feel it?

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