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deviant

Patawad....patawad....hindi ko sinasadya...please huminto ka na..

Nanginginig at pahagulgol na sambit ni Clara habang nakalapat ang kanyang mga kamay sa kaliwang tadyang ng asawang si Joshua habang patuloy itong tinatagasan ng dugo.

Nag-aagaw buhay...

*isa...dalawa...tatlo....

Mamatay kana!

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Tulong!!! Na-snatched ang bag ko!! Pasigaw ni Maria habang hingal na hingal sa paghabol sa mamang holdaper sa kahabaan ng Ermita. Nilalaman ng bag ang perang kanyang nalikom sa loob ng limang araw na paglalagi sa Casa, pangpagamot sana sa anak nyang nag-aagaw buhay dahil sa dengue.

Biglang tumunog ang telepono...

Ate, wala na si Mina...

*Miss!!!

Isang rumaragasang kotse ang biglang bumulaga sa kanyang harapan.

Nangingisay...

...durog ang ulo't labas at nagkalat ang utak.

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Tulalang nakatitig sa kawalan si Danilo habang nakatayo sa gilid ng ika-dalawampu't limang palapag ng gusali. Malamig ang simoy ng hangin, nakakapanindig balahibo.

Napakawalanghiya mo Brandon! Hayop ka! Nagawa mo pa talagang magdala ng putang babae dito sa loob ng pamamahay ko! Matapos kong gawin at ibigay ang lahat sayo eto pangkababuyan mo ang igaganti mo sa akin?!!

Oo! Dahil sawang-sawa na ako sa pagmumukha mong bakla ka!! Kung baboy ako mas baboy ka, binaboy mo pagkatao ko!!!!

*Masarap ang hangin...

Parang gahibla ng balahibo...

sarap magpatangay...

Pikit mata...eto na...

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anong meron sa kisame? wala naman akong makita.

anong meron sa silid na 'to? heto't ako'y nag-iisa.

ano ba ang meron ka? tinangay mo pati ang aking kaluluwa.

*ano ba itong nasa leeg ko? pisi ng buhay ko.

ano ba itong nasa paanan ko? huling tungtungan ko.

bulag,pipi,bingi

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Di ko lubos maisip kung bakit ako’y nahuhumaling sayo

Ngayong di naman linggid sa akin ang mga panloloko mo

Babae mo’y kaliwat-kanan, sa likod at sa harapan

Pero heto ako’t nananatiling umiibig sayo kahit puso’y nasasaktan.

Ilang beses ng binalak na ika’y iwanan

Iwasan na’t talikuran, tumakbo at maglaho sa kawalan

Ngunit sadyang mahina yaring puso ko’t nanghihinayang

Umaasa pa rin isang araw ako’y mamahalin at sa bisig mo’y tanging ako ang mananahan.

Halos ipagtabuyan mo ako’t pagkatao ko’y iyong yurakan

Ganon nalaman magbitiw ng mga salitang tagos sa aking kalamnan

Subalit pag-ibig pa din ang syang nangingibabaw sa aking katauhan

Pag-ibig..walang katiyakan, walang patutunguhan.

Halintulad ka ng isang halimaw na sa aki’y tumambad

Ako’y iyong binihag at ginapos na walang kalaban laban

Pinaikot mo sa iyong mapaglarong mga palad

At ngayo’y iyong hinahatak at patulak sa takda kong kamatayan.

Sa kabila ng lahat ika’y patuloy kong iniibig

Buong puso ko’t pagkatao’y pilit sayo’y isinisiksik

Ako’y isang hanggal dahil inalay sayo ang pag-ibig na wagas

Yaong di nag aabang ng kapalit sa tulad mong puno ng dahas.

Bulag…

Pipi…

Bingi…

Tanging tibok ng puso ko...

Damhin mo…

bitch on board!

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother

I'm a sinner, I'm a saint, I do not feel ashamed

I'm your hell, I'm your dream, 

I'm nothing in between

You know you wouldn't want it any other way

Just this morning I felt somewhat so feverish that I didn’t know what comes up to my head that causes me to act so bitchy!! Yeah! Don’t be so naive as if you didn’t know me so well after all this years! as if I care anyway!  I have done something so clever and it really makes me shiver co’z I found out that I’m a real genius! #grins #devilish I apologize for the hash tags

I almost freaked out when I found out that I can do unusual things that I thought I can never do beyond my abilities! #grinningwider #devilish #bitchy

I can smell now the sweet aroma of revenge!! Hahahaha! #devil’slaugh

So you think I’m just going to be a cry baby who will sit in the corner and weeps over you?!! nIn

Yes I cry and cried a lot; maybe I can carve now a river because of the tears that I’ve shed. But don’t be fooled by this lady that you have treated like a ragged doll for a long time…. I have fangs and claws too!

I will be your angel beyond your imagination, I will be there for you in all times, I will be your help if you’re in trouble, I will be your lover if you want me too….just don’t make me your BITCH co’z I’ll be more than that! dick head!

Then suddenly I felt so dizzy and I blacked out…..

Oooopppssss!! Where was I??!

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buloy.......

mgs from fb.....

classmayt: iyah....
iyah: po...
classmayt: wala na si ________
iyah: what?!!
iyah: i don't believe you!!!!
classmayt: totoo..
iyah: bakit anong nangyari?!!!
classmayt: nag-suicide....
iyah: WHHHAAAATT?!!!
iyah: no way!!!
classmayt: just today....

he is my classmate since elementary, one of my peers, one of my friend......strong personality, tough, lahat nasa kanya...pero bakit ganito?......

ilang balita pa bang ganito ang maririnig ko.....

GAME OVER

Na alarma ako dahil sa tweet ni Monik!!

Agad-agad akong nagbukas ng google at ni-search ang about don….

League of Legends' Gamer Dies InTaiwan, Corpse Goes Unnoticed For Hours In Internet Cafe

It took hours for patrons and staff to notice the corpse of a man who died after an hours-long gaming session at an Internet cafe in Taiwan, Sky News reports.

Staff members at an Internet cafe in New Taipei City discovered the lifeless body of Chen Jung-yu Wednesday night when they came to tell him that the 23-hour gaming pass he had purchased Tuesday night had expired. The 23-year-old gamer apparently died 10 hours earlier, according the Taipei Times.

Police told the Taipei Times they were disgusted when they arrived at the scene to find other gamers were disinterested in the corpse and wanted to continue playing during the investigation.

A picture of the crime scene posted to paper's website shows the corpse with outstretched arms reaching toward the keyboard of a computer.

The body had apparently been in that position since 3 p.m. Wednesday afternoon, about 10 hours into Chen's gaming session.

According to the Mirror, Chen had been playing "League of Legends," a 3D online multi-player videogame.

Investigators are still determining the cause of Chen's death.

According to his family, Chen was treated for a heart problem in September, Sky News reports.

Marathon sessions have been blamed in the deaths of a number of gamers. In 2005, a 28-year-old man from South Korea collapsed and died after playing "Starcraft" at an Internet cafe for 50 hours, BBC News reported.

In September 2007, state media in China reported that a man died of exhaustion after playing videogames for three straight days, according to Fox News.

In both cases, investigators say the men had not slept or eaten during their marathon sessions.

-          End (post taken from Huff Post)

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Na alarma talaga ako sa balitang ito, dali-dali akong nag message sa asawa ko dahil dito….naalala ko ang anak namin.

Sino ba namang ina at magulang na gustong mapahamak ang anak nya? I take this post as a warning not only for me but also for those who are hooked sa mga computer games who’s playing for hours and hours.

Yes my son spend his time too much on computer games, hindi lingid sa amin yon kaya nga lagi namin syang sinasabihan. But this time a think need na talaga kaming maging strict! Hmmmp! Palo!

I told my husband now na dapat orasan na ang pag-gamit ng anak namin ng computer maximum 1 hour or 2 hours is ok, but pag mag-exceed pa non grounded na sya. Kahit malayo ako sa kanya sa mga panahong ito di ibig sabihin pinapabayaan ko na syang gawin kung anong gusto nyang gawin! Yeah I’m a strict mama! Ako na ang KJ pero kung para naman sa ikabubuti ng anak ko, kailangan kong maging KJ. Kesa naman humantong tulad ng sa taas at pag-sisihan pa namin sa huli.

So sa may mga anak, kapatid, kamag-anak, sa lola’t-lolo nyo na naaadik sa computer games please advise them that it is not healthy na buong araw nakatutok sa pc para maiwasang mag-GAME OVER tulad nito CLICK MO!

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game over?

i wish i could fly..

i wish i could escape all these mess we created

i wish this would all be over

before my life would end.

i wish you were here

so you can wipe out all my tears

i wish you could see me

now that i'm having a hard time to breath.

i wish you would love me more

the way i'm loving you

more than words is what i need

because all those words only vanished.

i wish i could hang myself like this

though i know i may not look cute after this

so funny...

it makes me feel like my heart's gonna burst.

i wish...

i wish...

i wish...

this would be over.

before it's too late.

1....2......3!

Last night I had a dream…

I had a teddy bear! He is so cute and so cuddly I named him Ben and he was very happy for it. I was surprised he was able to talk! So we chatted the whole night and it was fun! Then he told me, let’s go to the kitchen I have something to show you, so I followed. Can you open the cupboard please co’z I can’t reach it, Ben said. Opening it, I saw different pairs of knives, graters, and scissors. Can you hand me the scissor? Ben asked, so I immediately hand it over to him. What are you going to do with it? I was a bit curious. Let’s play! I will show you my awesome trick! He said and grinned at me. You count 1 to 3 ok and watch me..it’s magic! I was so excited that my teddy bear’s going to do some trick so I counted…..

1…….2…….3!

Last night I had a dream….

I was at the roof top, 31 floors below me. Wow! It’s amazing and so cool out here, I never been here before. I saw the other buildings, the park, the traffic jammed, the busy streets and almost everything! Awesome! Then I looked up…woooow! I can almost reach the sky! Then I saw the birds…they can really fly that high! Suddenly, come fly with us! The big black bird said to me. Come here at the edge and we will teach you how! I saw it grinned. Really?! I was so excited so I run towards them immediately. I will count 1 to 3 and follow me, the bird said! Cool! I was so excited! Ready?

1…..2……3!

Last night I had a dream….

I was inside the bathroom, I was facing the mirror then I saw a girl staring back at me. She’s sad I can see it in her eyes. She was telling me something but I can’t hear her, so she pointed something at the sink. I picked it up..it was a shiny little thing. Then I looked up to her and she grinned. What do you want me to do? I asked. She pointed out my right wrist and she wants me to follow her as if she’s talking inside my head. She raised her left had…..counting….

1….2….3!

Last night I had a dream….

I was inside a dark room all alone and it was freezing. I feel a little bit tipsy and I don’t know where I am. Then I saw somebody looking at me from the outside of the window. I can’t see it clearly who it was but it’s waving at me… It’s telling me to come outside. How can I come I don’t know how to get out! I shouted. Then I saw the figure and it grinned…I saw it’s lips moved so clearly…said……..Jump! Then it raised it’s hand and was about to count…I was so ready..then it started….

1….2….3!

HALL PASS?!!!

galing google

I’m not selfish!

Nasabi ko ito dahil sa mga bagay-bagay na nangyari sa akin last week…

·         Nagmamahal lang ako kaya ako ganito, ayoko ng maulit pa ang nakaraan tulad ng sinapit ng mga magulang ko.

·         Natatakot lang ako kaya ako ganito, nakakatrauma talaga kung paulit-ulit sa herasyon ko nangyari.

Siguro nagtataka kayo bakit ganito ang post ko, well malamang hindi kasi puro naman talaga kaemohan ang blog ko. Nahihiya po akong ishare kaso siguro napaparanoid lang ako! Gusto kong mag post ng masaya kaso wala naman akong maisip……

Last week nanood po kami ng lablayp ko ng “HALL PASS” it’s about a couple na medyo nagkakaroon sila ng prob sa relationship nila. Dahil sa feeling ng asawa nyang babae na di na namemeet ang needs ng lalaki at di nya na ito nasasatisfy so she gave him a hall pass, meaning 1 week off po sa marriage nila yung parang cool off muna sila. The husband is allowed to mingle around, flirt, cheat whatever na gusto nyang gawin for 1 week.

Spoiler ako kaya honestly I don’t like the idea of this movie. Though the summary of this movie is about honesty but I don’t really like it. Bakit pa kailangan mong itest ang asawa mo kung talagang honest sya? Meaning to say pag di na nasasatisfy ang asawa mo eh papayagan mong magloko?! Di ba?!!!!!!!!!

Marami namang paraan para maresolve ang isang relationship, it’s just a matter of communication. May dahilan bakit nagiging cold ang mag-asawa sa isa’t-isa, kaya mahalaga ang communication dahil doon mo malalaman ang pangangailangan ng bawat mag-asawa. Kaya nga kayo naging partner kasi you both complete each other, kung ano ang kahinaan ng isa yun naman ang lakas ng kapareha, nobody's perfect.

I’m not selfish, pero ang kay Eva ay kay Eva!

Kayo na po ang bahalang mag-isip kung anong gusto nyong isipin.

Ikaw gusto mo ba ng HALL PASS?!

PS: ok po kami ni lablayp c",)

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All is gone into wasted...
Don’t know what went wrong
Why it have to come to this point?
There’s no hope
Darkness and fire rules your world.

I wished that I heard your cries
I wished you had spoken out what’s on your mind
I wished I have been closer to you
It might help and have saved you.

Now your soul has gone astray
I can just imagine the look on your face
You’ve been weak and were betrayed
How foolish now it’s too late.

Death is not the way out
Lifeless you are, the more hopeless you’ll be.
Why you haven’t been strong enough?
This question I have is left unanswered.

Why there should be silence when you could speak out?
Why you have to take your life and give your self a doubt?
Don’t be fooled by this world
Ev’ry difficulty we have is just like a storm
And we’re just passing through…

It will end…..
Surely it will end….

Now silence is all you’ve got
I know you want to shout but you’re now out
Hopeless, we can never reach you out
Tears and regrets will surely pass out.

It will end…
But death….
It’s not the end…..